Trauma Series 7: The Final Part

Maybe if I had understood what was going on a little better, I wouldn’t have started hurting myself. Maybe if I had been told that what I was going through was scary and confusing and not my fault, I wouldn’t have blamed myself for being so messed up. But instead, I felt ashamed of my... Continue Reading →

Free-birthing Indigo

It had been planned from the beginning; a home birth without medical assistance.  A birth free of stress, unhelpful commands, and strange hands touching me and my baby as we plunged into what would be the most vulnerable time of our lives.  I had lived by the hospital rules twice now and I refused to... Continue Reading →

Trauma Series 6: Loss of Self

Most likely you know what you like and maybe you have always known.  Like, who your favorite band is, what kind of clothes you like to wear, what sort of movies and shows you are interested in, etc.  Most of us have spent our whole lives developing our likes and dislikes, learning from experience and... Continue Reading →

Being Real: A throwback post from 2010

I wrote this in 2010...and I am reposting. 🙂 I’m not entirely sure why my fingers are slipping across the keyboard, spilling out some of my deepest thoughts, but I hope that maybe—somewhere out there—there’s someone who can benefit from what I feel is pressing against my heart. I can sense God’s presence in my... Continue Reading →

Trauma Series 4: Loss of Self

Self worth.  Those words have a lot of layers, because on the one side is a person who understands that they are valuable and enough and no less important than anyone else regardless of beauty, success, power, etc….and on the other hand is a person who believes that they are worthy of it all, entitled... Continue Reading →

Trauma Series 3: Depression and Anxiety

Depression.  Anxiety.  Two words that sometimes leave us cringing, feeling like no one will understand or we will be judged and possibly not taken seriously.  As an adult, I have struggled with depression far less than I did as a teenager and college student, but sometimes it still strikes unsuspectingly.  However, the difference between my... Continue Reading →

Trauma Series 2: Flashbacks

The pages are turning as I begin to unravel so many of the moments I never had a chance to piece together; the picture that always looked so broken and useless and…void.  It was as if I was sitting in a dark room; the kind of dark that would make the mere idea of trying... Continue Reading →

Trauma Series 1: Loss of Safety and Trust

Loss of Safety and Trust Everything has an origin story and more often than not, we don’t recognize the beginning of the fall until we are lying at the bottom, lost under the debris and grit of trauma.  Those seemingly inconsequential moments that somehow compile into one  unforeseeable moment; the one where you are sitting... Continue Reading →

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